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The Acqua Recovery blog brings drug abuse and addiction recovery insights through a living breathing journal full of videos and articles from around the addiction recovery community. Explore the latest news, learn about available resources, gain new insights, and get to know our passionate and sometimes silly staff.


Digging Deep and Finding Faith

I arrived at Acqua on Feb 13, 2017, a broken person filled with anxiety, depression and fear. I was suicidal and was struggling with wanting to live. My life circumstances had become extremely unmanageable, and I suffered from shame and guilt. Today I sit atop a mountain range on a resident hike four weeks after arriving filled with hope, faith and acceptance. The staff at Acqua has been very compassionate, and have helped me deal with my emotions and life challenges. My therapist took the time to get to know me and helped me dig deep into myself to deal with post trauma, my addiction and restored my confidence in my recovery. I have found my faith again in my higher power.

The program at Acqua is very well structured with a group and individual therapy throughout the day and evening. We are kept busy and focused every day to help all of us heal. The program addresses physical, mental and spiritual health.

I have been struggling with alcohol addiction for the past seven years. Many detox’s, hospitals, residential treatments and jail are part of my story. At one point, I managed to be sober for 2 ½ years through working the AA program and eventually relapsed. That started a 15-month downward slide with three relapses and greater consequences with each. I spent six months in jail and when released drank for one week at attempted suicide. I spent six days in ICU on life support; I was granted my life back and came to Acqua.

Being at Acqua has helped to heal me, and I still have much work to do. Acqua helped to restore my hope, faith and love.

Climbing My Mountains

I’m sitting half way to the top of a mountain east of Heber, hiking with my peers from Acqua. I’m very out of shape, which is why I’m only half way up due to my relapse almost five years ago. My name is *****, and I’m an alcoholic. I started using and drinking at an early age of 13. I was like a chameleon changing colors/drugs to adapt to people/surroundings everywhere I would go.

I started off with pot and a little bit of liquor than to more – meth pills, methadone, Adderall, Suboxone, Subsolve, Subutex, Xanax, Klonopin, Ativan and basically any mood or mind altering substance I could get my hands on. Luckily there was a seven-year stretch which by God’s grace I became sober. This didn’t happen till age 26, and by then I was a single mom with two kids. That seven years was amazing. I was married, had my third son, bought a house and loved recovery. And then BAM it was over!

I had found out my husband had cheated on me with a girl I sponsored. I was devastated, became very resentful and just like I had heard in meetings, resentments are your number one offender. I relapsed, and I couldn’t believe it! I truly believed I was cured – WRONG. My disease had been slowly waiting, manifesting itself for this day to come, and I picked up right where I had left off, turning my body into a garbage can. I had gained a lot of knowledge about recovery, 12 steps and God in those seven years. I tried to manage my life and tried keeping my job. I had gained my house. I had gained my children, my dignity, thought I was doing well and had this disease licked. I had a terrible case of the “Yets” like; I’m fine I haven’t lost anything “yet,” but that wasn’t true.

I was dying on the inside, more miserable than I’d ever been and my life had become completely unmanageable, and I was in complete denial. Within four years though, it happened, everything was GONE! My children, my job, my house, my car, my bank account and my self-worth. Even my dog (sounds like a country song, I know).

I had become a raging, pill-popping, drunk that wanted to die every single day! I had tried stopping but for all the wrong reasons. I tried to keep my relapse a secret, but it soon became very obvious I was no longer an outstanding member of society. Knowing what to do to be sober, yet not doing it had become the hardest challenge. I’d much rather have not known what to do, but I did. I tried detox numerous times but as I said, it wasn’t my decision, and I was trying to please others and stay afloat. I finally drowned. I was personally ready, and no one else made the decision to seek help.
I checked myself into detox and was there for 13 days. During that stay, I picked up some info on Acqua and called. They were very nice, and I was very hopeful. It was Feb 12, 2017, and I was scheduled to check-in on March 1st. I was discharged and of course drank again. Luckily on March 6, 2017, I finally checked in. It has been a great experience, and I am truly grateful to be here. If you’re here, you are in the right place. Recovery rocks and I pray that you finally find that peace and serenity that I thought was impossible ever to find again.

Mindful Monday Guilt vs. Shame

In this week’s episode of Mindful Monday, James candidly interviews Brandon, a therapist at acqua recovery. Watch as Brandon talks about the difference between guilt and shame and how anyone can change shift their perspective to see a new point of view. Brandon is a master’s level clinician and passionate about helping people struggling with substance abuse and mental wellness.

Jackson Hole Road Trip

Here’s a quick Facebook Live Video of Matthew Bernard and Matt Biekert preparing to hit the road to visit the addiction recovery community in Jackson Hole, Wyoming and Southeast Idaho, including Rexburg, Idaho Falls, and Pocatello. acqua believes in connecting with the surrounding communities and supporting anyone struggling with drug or alcohol addiction and/or mental illness.

Rock Springs Vernal Road Trip PM

Matt Biekert gives a recap of his road trip with James to Rock Springs, Wyoming and talks about connecting with like-minded substance abuse professionals in the area. Then he reminds us all to take a moment to enjoy the world around us as they travel through Northeast Utah. acqua recovery believes in supporting neighboring communities that lack addiction recovery and mental health resources.

Mindful Monday Deep Listening

In this week’s opening episode of Mindful Monday, James Hadlock, our Marketing Director, shares his insight on deep listening (next level listening). Watch as he takes you through a few simple steps that change how you hear other people and connect with yourself, others, and the world around you. He talks about being present, putting yourself in the other person’s shoes, and withholding feedback, judgement, or advice. Listen as he shares how it has helped him in his own recovery for over 9 years.

Rock Springs Vernal Road Trip AM

Here’s a quick Facebook Live Video of James Hadlock and Matt Biekert preparing to hit the road to visit the addiction recovery community in Rock Springs, Wyoming and Eastern Utah, including Vernal and Roosevelt. acqua is committed to supporting the surrounding, under-served communities, providing substance abuse education, and giving hope to those struggling with drug or alcohol addiction and/or mental illness.

Sun Valley Road Trip

Take a peek at this Sun Valley, Idaho road trip with Acqua Recovery’s very own Mattie Bernard and James Hadlock as they connect with surrounding communities supporting anyone struggling with drug or alcohol addiction and/or mental illness. As they enjoy the beauty, their commentary takes a quick turn as they discuss the political landscape and talk about navigating life without being victim to our circumstances.

Randy On Gratitude

It’s always amazing when staff decide to come with their authenticity and openness, and this interview with Clinical Director, Randy is a perfect example. Watch as he gets real about missing his family and being grateful for everything in his life.

Acqua’s Drug Rehab Documentary Short

We wanted to provide an inside look at what people experience when entering drug rehab, so we challenged a local business man to spend 24 hours and live a “day in the life” at Acqua Recovery, a residential treatment center for substance abuse. This was his story. If this was helpful, please share this video!

2016 Sober Softball League

Erica and JoeDe, two of our amazing techs at acqua recovery, show off trophies from the 2016 Sober Softball League. It was a great year for residents, alumni, and staff. We believe staying active and reconnecting with others is a great way to enjoy life and recovery. Thanks to everyone that participated this year.

Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all the darkness.

– Desmond Tutu

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